let's open up a restaurant in santa fe

It's very, very cold. I don't usually get too cold but right now, I'm definitely cold. Whoever invented plaid flannel pajama bottoms is my hero because they might be the comfiest article of clothing ever. I'm sporting a pair right now with one of my favorite American Apparel V-Necks and my fuzzy Hollister (yes, Hollister) hoodie. I'm quite toasty and comfy. Eat it, Jack Frost. Just eat it!

It feels really strange to use proper capitalization and spelling. I've been doing this "ooh
i
think ima
press enter a lot"
thing for a bit too long. Yes, I'm changin it up.

I wish I was finished with college applications. They fail.
-L

a cinematic vision ensued

i am sick. and it sucks.
i'm SO congested
and i have no voice
like a second ago i tried to say something to my mom
but all that came out was like this ridiculous screechy, squeaky noise
whoever got me sick is losing a digit
j/k
or am i?

because she can never seem to find the words

11:48 pm eastern standard time
12 minutes until i start anew
can't you hear that ticking?
can't you hear my heart beat?
so much to do, so little time

i have terrible writer's block. i just wrote this ballad for school and it took me like an hour. usually, i can write a creative writing assignment in a half and hour and get an a. i just couldn't find words that rhymed the way i wanted this time. so, i ended up writing a poem about a princess and her running away to the sea. i wanted to write something darker with a deeper moral message, but i couldn't think of anything. fail.

take care of yourself, darling.

we all live in a yellow submarine

i can't get your smile out of my mind

this is the music video of my soul. thank you jonas brothers.

come to the acapella dance party

i slept for 14 hours yesterday. i was absolutely exhausted. right now i have that funky "woah i slept for way too long" feeling. retreat was absolutely amazing. probably the most amazing thing i've ever done. i had so much fun and it was fantastic to be able to open up about some things in my life that i don't open up about too often. but, i guess what it taught me the most is that we're all in this together and a lot of people have the same hopes, fears, and sufferings as i do. for 2 whole days, social groups were cast aside for everyone to just come together and be friends. i absolutely loved it. i hung out with so many new people that i never hung out with before. a lot of people proved me wrong. everything about the retreat (except maybe the beef stroganoff the first night) was absolutely fabulous.

also, have i mentioned how much i absolutely adore this? it makes me sad, though. :(

food for thought

I wonder if he was once a dreamer like me,
Staring at photographs on the walls of trendy late night diners,
thinking about the people he’d like to meet
and how disappointed he’d likely be
to realize that history is sick, crude, beautiful,
and likely to repeat.

stolen from william beckett.

GUITAR!

i rock out to i believe in a thing called love by the darkness on a regular basis.

to the extreme i rock the mic like a vandal

light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle

you know what i hate?
cake
i really, really hate cake
i don't understand why people like it so much
it's just really spongy and sweet
and the icing is really sugary
ewwww
really sugary things are disgusting
i've never liked cake
but when people bring me cake, i feel obligated to eat it
because they brought me cake
and that was really nice of them
but i can't just be like, "i hate cake. go away."
they'd probably go cry somewhere
because i mean they were just trying to be nice
and bring me cake
although i probably wouldn't cry if that happened to me
but still
i'd get really pissed off
why is cake like the birthday thing to have?
seriously
maybe i want a pizza with some candles in it
or like a turkey
why a cake, society?
why a cake, world?

currently, i'm...

-listening to every acoustic song on my ipod
-experiencing spirit week withdrawal
-reading looking for alaska by john green when i should be reading dr. faustus
-wishing for summer
-preparing myself to frantically do college apps within the next 2 days
-ready for college

howdy. i didn't go to school today. i have a cold. nice.